I have been so buried in applications for grants, business start-up and planning I have not had much time for making. I find it harder too as I am working from home and there are the endless dishes and mounds of housework looking at me every day.
I don’t know about you, but I can’t work in a mess and hate anyone dropping in too it. So I have to get it done. My lucky partner just closes the door on it on his way out to work.
At first I just got on with it. If you want something doing… and all that. Also I felt that if I really wanted to do what I do, then this is what I would have to swallow to get there.
But there are times when it detracts from what I need to do, never mind what I would like to do. I am very human and I can’t do it all. I also kick myself and remember how lucky I am.
I also remind myself how lucky I am to be doing what I enjoy, ( my partner hates his job) and so I ‘suck it up’.
Yet I was with a group of makers the other day and discovered that within our group this was not the case for the men in the group. They felt that what they were making was more important and always put it first. In each case ( and remember I am not generalising.. Other people will be different, this is fact for our group) they left everything other than their work till last and usually did what ‘bits’ around the house they wanted leaving full-time working partners to cook, clean, manage kids, shop etc.
I have really been thinking about this. I felt quite aggrieved at first and then slowly I realised that I am doing it to myself. Because I do.. I am left to do.
If my work is to progress I have to change my work ethos. Ideally I would work away from the home and do no more than my share. But I don’t. So I have to find a balance ( there I go again with the sharing caring bit). How do you go about it without daily unhelpful rows about left socks and dishes?
Now that the majority of the business plan is done, I am back to my own work. I have missed it terribly and its income. Perhaps it is the coming of spring, but I feel a need for change.